Well it has been 21 long days since our little princess passed and everyday is hard...but having Josh and Teagan makes every day worth getting up for.
We have made it through the first 5 days of the school holidays...lol...Nana took them to see Monster House, we have been on bike rides, walks, gone to the park and had a little shopping spree and next week we are all going to the Royal Melbourne Show.
Mum and Dad went to the Hospital on Monday to give the Nurses a thank you card and some chocolates. Dad usually spent his RDO's in the Hospital with Mum..they said it was strange to be back but they are glad that they got to say thank you to the Nurses that were there.
John went in Tuesday evening (I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it...i'm not ready)he took in the Pen for Chaplain Keith (for doing Rani's Service) plus some photo frames with pics of Rani for Keith, the Nurses on 5W and her Specialist. It really hit John hard when he went. He said it was very emotional but something that he wanted to do.
We were going to see Rose run at the Transplant Games today but both John and I decided that we just aren't ready to see all those lucky transplantees running around when we should have been one of them.
I am going to try and organise my scraping space soon (although it will probably be when the kids are back at school) as most of my scrapping supplies are in boxes still. I really want to scrap but am finding it hard as must pics have Rani in them.
None of us are sleeping very well still...we all have millions of what if questions floating in our heads and just plain feeling robbed.
John and I have to go to the Cremoturium some time next week and look at the different areas so we can work out exactly where we want to place Rani and what we want to say on her plaque, so that we can have it all ready for when my sister gets here in December and with the way that the year is flying by it will be here before we know it.
Well it is cold, wet and windy here, so i think I might put a DVD on and curl up under my doona :)