Suprise!!!!!!!!

Well what a roller coaster of emotions we have been on in the last couple of weeks...dealing with Rani's birthday and then Anniversary and filled with emotions of suprise, shock, guilt and finally delight.

What am I talking about you may well ask...

Well to your suprise and ours (believe me) let me introduce the latest addition to our family...lol




Yes this little unplanned suprise makes baby no. 5

After the initial shock John and I are now quite excited over this new and definately last addition to our family. I have had an overwhelming feeling of guilt since I found out I was pregnant. I guess finding out close to Rani's birthday and anniversary and then seeing her knowing again that I am pregnant for the second time in as many years makes me feel bad. Kai was certainly not bought into the world as a replacement for Rani and neither is this one, I just feel bad that she isn't here to enjoy our expanding family.

As some of you already know I have PCOS - which was discovered after it took 5 years to get Rani...so when we made the decision to go for baby no.4 I needed help, monitoring, months of disappointment of not being pregnant, etc.... so to fall in naturally and so quickly after Kai was certainly a suprise ...as my body is not meant to work...lol.

So this little one is due March 7...yes there will only be 11 months between Kai and this one - but there is 15 months between Josh and Teagan and I didn't find that hard so I am hoping this will be easy as well.


So I guess one advantage Kai will have a little playmate amd hopefully they will be as close as Josh and Teagan are.