Well today is 5 months since the worst day of my life!!!
I am in a funny mood feeling somewhat distant to people, but wanting company....but not really contacting anyone but then again not being contacted by many either...i guess that makes no sense...told you i was in a funny mood...
The other night we found out a family member is pregnant..it seems that lots of people we know are pregnant atm...and believe me I am happy for every single one of them and wish them a happy healthy baby...but then that envy twinge hits me, then the angry one...the one that just wants the last years events erased and me to be home playing with my daughter...why can't I just pinch myself and wake up from this nightmare...
On a happy note my brother rang me this morning and asked me to search the internet for a Fun Run that the money was going to the Royal Childrens Hospital - as he put it "I'll run for the kid, even though I hate running"
I searched and found what he was looking for and saw that there were 2 runs a 3.4km run and a 15.2km run...thinking he would do the 3.4km I rang him with the details and he is doing the 15.2km run in honor of Rani, which i think is just amazing of him.
Here are the details - Run for the Kids
We will get more details in the mail next week - so we are trying to work out how to sponser him!
Well I may not Blog for a little while - i am taking a step back and re-assessing a few things, doing a bit of soul searching and trying to make up for lost time with Josh and Teagan as I feel guilty for the way they were hand balled around while Rani was in Hospital...plus we have some other things on our plates that are taking up a lot of our time...so chat sometime later :)
although if you want to send me an email I will be checking that from time to time - just cutting back the amount of time I spend sitting here.